The Other End of the Rainbow.

2009-07-05T00:45:00.001+08:00

moved.

http://famoushappyends.wordpress.com

2009-06-30T22:14:00.004+08:00

I'm addicted to SIMS 3!

And i realised that it's "evolved" along with society cause now, you can make your sims woohoo even if they're not married.

Oh, and woohoo in sims language, means make love.

Anyway, my brother came home from school yesterday, with cough, flu and fever. And my parents totally freaked out. He came back from the doctor's smiling, because he's got 2 days MC.

Today, my dad received a call from the school's addministator, asking him where his son is. Turns out that my brother played a joke on his friend. He told his friend that he's being quarantined, and his friend told his teacher, and the teacher informed the school.

So stupid. Turned out that the joke's on himself.

And, ed and i are gonna sell our clothes. Most of my clothes have never been worn before, and lots of them, i wonder why i even bought them in the first place.

I have lots of ed's acting sexy pictures, but i cant upload pictures. haha, maybe it's a sign. And, taking pictures using self timer is no joke man. I am so tired of walking to my camera in my heels, pressing the button and waiting for it to snap. And most of them turned out blurry. Asshole. I told edwina that our items are so cheap, it's not worth it to do so much work for it lor. But then again, I'll have to clear my wardrobe so my mum doesnt nag everytime i carry a paper bag home or when i receive a package of clothes.

Cant wait for SIM to start.

2009-06-05T02:45:00.000+08:00

See see see, i will marry yi jung! But if i have 13 kids with him, they'll all probably have damn small eyes, and i'll be too fat to fit into my red bmw then. Okay boyfriend, i rather marry you. X)

2009-06-05T02:07:00.004+08:00

I AM FREAKING BORED!

I cant believe i stayed at home for 4 whole days, alright, make that 5 cause i have absolutely no plans for later on as well, and it's friday for goodness sake! And what the hell have i been doing at home? Disturbing dennis and making him go crazy, bullying dennis, but actually, it's bonding what right? I've been spending alot of time with him lately, watching late night DVDs, shopping online, and encouraging him to skip holiday classes!

We were all supposed to go to IKEA at queensway earlier because he said he wanted to get berms, and i know this place there that sells really great berms, and then we could have lunch at IKEA. In the end, he said he wanna dota because he have to go to school on Friday, which is later on, so I treated my brothers KFC. ha!

Ever since i know i'll be getting some money, i've been buying online stuff! For Dennis as well, and i promised him a treat because on my first day of work, both my feets got sooooo numb i couldnt even walk properly, and guess what? He massaged my feet for like 2 hours! Damn sweet right, and he didnt even complain.

I bought him a pair of shoes, and i'm considering paying for the stuff he ordered online as well, BUT, his bank account has more money than me lor. Like, twice? I know he likes a lot of stuff but he wants to save, and so he doesnt mind using Sam's old stuff. He'd rather spend the money on games, psp, ps3 games, and all the gadgets.

You know how the youngest one always get dote on the most? I worry for him the most and i have soft spots for him, rather than Sam. It's not that I dont love Sam as much, Sam's like my bitch. And Sam's one fierce bitch, he knows how to stand up for himself, he's got a job, he's very independent. Dennis is independent too, but even though he's already 17 this year, i cant help but worry for him, if he's okay in school, does he have enough friends, are his results okay, is he one of the cool ones... you get my drift.

And the other day, i saw his report book, and i was quite shocked cause since sec one, his teachers have been commenting about how talkative he is, haha! And i rather him being the naughty talkative one than the quiet nerd. Oh! And he's 2nd in class and the cohort la! Once, he asked me how much i got for my o's, and i told him 11 and 14.

*I saw a fucking hugeass mosquito!*

Okay, anyway, we made a bet, if he could get 10 and 13, i'll treat him. I hope i do get to treat him. Oh, and we're gonna play left 4 dead together one day. Damn my laptop cant support it i dont know why! Whenever i hear him playing L4D, i'll be freaking sian and i'll force him not to play.

ANYWAY! Ed's opened her blogshop, please do visit alright.
http://www.button-down.livejournal.com/

I have yet to receive my pay, and i've already spent...$129 shopping online with my dear credit card. I NEED MY PAY! I wanna go to city plaza, and far east, and buy bags. Argh!

*Okay, even more fucked up! i spotted one mosquito bite on my leg. i fucking hate mosquitoes!*

Oh yes, and one more thing, the asshole cant book out later on! ARGH! Ed's out of town, boyfriend cant book out, it's friday and only my parents will be home and god, sometimes, i feel bad being home alone with them la, maybe they wanna do some lovey dovey stuff but i'm there, okay whatever. I need my money, and i need my date.

And i need a magical mosquito zapper.

2009-06-04T22:04:00.007+08:00

When i look at the edward cullen picture (yes jayson, the one you gave me!) on my magnetic board by my table, i'd remember how he flew with that-girl-whose-name-i-dont-wanna-remember. (okay bella!) And how they danced, and how it seems like they're gonna live happily ever after, forever and ever, since he wont ever be dying. And sometimes, i start to go excessively and foolishly enthusiastic over him, so much so that my brothers will ask me to shut the fuck up.

And then, my recent craze was So Yi Jung! SUNBAE! Who asshole-ly uses fireworks on his date with yet another lucky girl. He totally treats a girl like how every girl wants to be treated la! Where got such asshole on earth, tell me?*smitten*

And sometimes, there's tay ping hui to be crazy over. Anyway, Mr Tay here USED to be my favourite channel 8 guy. Until Zhang Yao Dong walked past me at Junction 8, WAY TOO CLOSE, and god, i swear i could smell him. He was freak tall, soooo well-built and damn dark! Okay, whatever.
When i'm more sane, i get crazy over the real-est kind of guy, who is tall, dark, and funny. Used to think he was freak tall but got used to it over the... months. He's also well-built, minus his tummy. He's not a vampire, or a guy-too-rich-to-be-true, and i'm very sure he's not gay.

I wonder if you'll ever get too crazy over me.

2009-06-01T19:16:00.002+08:00

thanks to all the mean aunties and uncles who treated me as an invisible lady.
thanks to all the sweet aunties who made time past faster.
thanks to all those who made me waste so much time on them and end up not buying.
thanks to mr and mrs lee for surprising us with the commission.
thanks to all the nice perm. staff who helped us get more commission.
thanks to mr dragon boat asshole, who is only 17 but looks 25, for being way to competitive, you forced me to work so damn fucking hard just so i could beat you.
thanks to my baby who surprised me twice last week.
thanks to my hp i wasnt late more than twice last week.
thanks to tiger balm plaster because i have a really bad neck ache now.
thanks to all the money i'm gonna receive.

2009-05-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

the weekends sucks like fuck without you!

xuan: girlfriend, you know what is solar storm? they say that it'll occur in 2012.

(this solar storm thing will affect communication, satellites and power systems)

me:huh, 2012 again! if really happen how? then i cannot call you!

xuan: nevermind girlfriend, if really happen, you wait for me at your house, i will run to your house to find you.

I hope all the shitty predictions of 2012 will not occur, PLEASE! I havent have enough time with you yet!

2009-05-13T21:47:00.010+08:00

I've always wondered how in the hell would anyone know if we were to push the machine since no one's ever there.
All of Valerie's and Ginger's $1 coins.

I accidentally pushed the machine when we almost got the pink tofu, and there's this super loud sound, and then it goes, "Please do not the push the machine". So that's how.We got a "Carissa"

Val singing emo songs.

I think i get really really high when i'm kboxing with my smu friends. Let's go to the zoo soon!

2009-05-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

happyummiliciousweetoothiee 26 months!

2009-05-11T19:30:00.005+08:00

I cut my fringe and i think i look hideous now. Anyway, this was taken on Friday night, we went for a drink at Timbre with his cousins.

Woke up early the next day and we all went to the airport.

to celebrate Sharon's birthday.

Half the amount we ate. See the amount of red plates on the left, surprisingly, they were all zong xuan's plates even though he doesnt eat seafood. Our Sashimi was not served yet.

Sharon and her cake.

Boyfriend eating with the knife, he had about 1/4 of the whole cake because none of us could eat anymore. I think i only had one peach.
And then we all attened a wedding dinner, at the EXPO lor. Insane 80 tables.

And that was my weekend with boyfriend and his cousins. I hate my boyfriend's unit because he cant book out this coming weekend, again. Had I known he'll be posted to such a unit, I shouldnt have warned him not to try and get posted to the officer unit last year because he's burning so many weekends and his pay sucks.

AND, i hope my fringe grows real fast, please.

2009-05-04T22:22:00.004+08:00

You're not the kind who tells me i'm pretty when i'm dressed up.

You're the kind who tells me i'm pretty when i'm without make up, in an oversized shirt and fbt shorts, with my black framed glasses and terribly messy hair, and mean it.

You're not the kind who hugs me right at night.

You're the kind who hugs me when you're in a deep sleep, thinking that i'm your bolster, which makes me eventually kick you off me because your limbs are way too heavy it causes me to have cramps in my legs.

You're not the kind who piggy-backs me or carry me like a baby, the right way.

You're the kind who carries me and swing me up high when i least expected it and only put me down because i'm screaming too much.

You're not the kind who tells me how much you love me.

You're the kind who buys me seaweeds or candies to help me stop missing you during the weekdays.

You're not the kind who bears grudges.

You're the kind who listen to me complain all day long about the people who in my view takes advantage of you or did you wrong.

You're not the kind who wants to meet me all the time

You're the kind who makes me look forward to every weekend, the kind who makes me wanna meet you all the time

You're not the kind who would find it troublesome to pick your mum up from work, run errands for your uncle or sending your cousins to the airport.

You're the kind who would bring me all the way home from a stayover just so that I can have a warm bath because your heater broke down.

I love your kind.

The kind who tells me my middle finger is cute.
The kind who buys me any amount of zui gui i want even though he knows I wont be able to finish all.
The kind who cant stop crapping with me even for 2 minutes.
The kind who lets me take video of him doing stupid stuff.
The kind who helps me wash my feet whenever we're at his place.
The kind who declares that disturbing me is his hobby.
The kind who loves me in the weirdest way.

I love the way you love me.

2009-05-04T19:27:00.014+08:00

I AM ALIVE! Val and the girls said that I was dead, at least, online. I've been so lazy to come online, and now, I'm gonna come online everyday! Because I'm so addicted to Restaurant City on Facebook.

Alright Updates!

Mey up with Joy and the others on... one fine Saturday, I forgot which week. We went to F.I.S.H at Tampines one and caught Handsome Suit after which.Last Thursday! Coffee Club with smu sweethearts!
And there's something about Carissa, that makes Kiang Pin hug her all the time, that makes Valerie wanna bring her home, that makes me wanna create a Carissa-plushie.

We were so noisy but we didnt care because we THOUGHT we were the only ones there.

Valerie's smokin' hot legs.

The moderately rich crazy girl.

I love love love them. I think they're madly in love with me as well. HAHA.

We parted at 4 and I went to meet... Jon and the others.

for Rayner's ORD parade!

Jon brought his toy camera.

Rayner's mum.

We went to Katong to play left 4 dead after which.

And yay! I finally blogged.

2009-04-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

I am freaking pissed.

Xuan came back from fieldcamp with lots of bites. SO MUCH of them it looks almost like the pox, and his foot looks rotten. "What happened to my boyfriend today?!"

Tampines One is so crowded i miss the old Tampines.

I totally dislike the 7-11 advertisement.

I'm having back aches.

I'm hungry and I dont know what to eat, or rather, there's nothing to eat.

Mediacorp's website sucks big time.

I installed the new MSN live and i cant change the conversation windows to pink anymore. I hate ugly blue conversation windows.

2009-04-13T22:18:00.004+08:00

Now, this post is dead late.

Gerald's 20 something birthday... on, 27 march.
The pathetic mango pudding we got him. I'm so sorry TYC, oh ya, and we were soooooo late! I think he waited for us there for an hour.

He's super asshole, he took these pictures to make ch jealous.

My birthday gift for him.
Eve, me, and my bimbotic red bag.

Gerald ah, now both eve and i are attached, except you! Faster la! So old already.

2009-04-03T02:38:00.003+08:00

We should magnify other people's good points and try to forget the bad. (My foot.)

Try forgetting how unreasonable i can get, or how bad my temper can be, how bad some of my jokes are, how lazy i am, how bitchy i am, how spendthrift i am, how late i can be, how many times i swear in a day, and the list goes on.

It's funny because these are my MAIN characteristics, my friends and boyfriend complain about them all the time, but they still love me. (YAY!)

I guess if I've revealed these to people at the wrong timing, that is, when its not time to show them my true colours, they'll label me as a damn bitch. Ed can be a real bitch, but i'll still stand by her when she say the meanest stuff. I guess if EVERYONE's your friend, which is highly impossible, you MIGHT not have anything to bitch about anyone anymore. I know how bad is it to gossip and bitch about other people just to make yourself feel better about your life. It appears on mags all the time; "girls! it's wrong to gossip! it's wrong to bitch!" But, everyone does that. Dont tell me you havent bitched about how that "package girl" 's probably a slut, or how dumb that damn hot model might be. And i wonder how saint those people who classify liars and backstabbers under their hate-lists are. They probably hate themselves as well.

*And this totally reminds me of someone who stated that she dislike girls using vulgarities and how it was VERY UNACCEPTABLE, which was okay. The NOT-okay part was her stating that she will never use it in one paragraph, and that she would only use it sometimes in the next paragraph. Haha, like shut up.

You probably think that it's none of my business, yeah, i dont really care what she thinks, but this was directed at my friend, and totally at the wrong timing; when we were all damn free during SIP blog-hopping.*

I guess everyone knows it's wrong, but still does it "behind close doors". Just like how we know laksa and KFC is unhealthy but we LOVE it. It's like a form of entertainment.

I wonder how many friends we'll lose from all these because who would wanna be friends with that damn rich girl who say, takes pictures exposing her cleavage all the time?! Probably lots of guys.

I wonder if we can become so bad, we become ultra sinful gossip addicts.

Thank you, vainity and jealousy.

2009-04-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

I always couldnt understand why you didnt like holding my hands cause to me, it's the sweetest kind of physical connection. I finally forced myself to accept it when Gerald said it's really due to our height problem. So be it. I'm starting to appreciate other kinds of physical touch, like your hands on my waist.

I always thought that our relationship was boring because everything was way too normal. Until Eve got so excited over our middle finger story, and kept telling me how special our relationship was, that i started to realised how special it really was, though Gerald decided that it wasnt special but warped. I just have to magnify the minor special parts of our lives that i've never seemed to notice before.

I always thought that you were becoming complacent, considering how perfect you were before we got together and how imperfect you are now. Until I realised how much I loved the imperfect you. The perfect you really boosted my ego and made me felt like i deserve what this guy could do for me. But it was from the imperfect you that I learnt how to become a better person.

The weekends were great. Thanks.

I love you.

*I wanna be taller.

2009-03-25T21:06:00.004+08:00

When we were young, we lived in a black and white world.

I knew that i must sleep early. I knew that I must wake up and wait for my aunt to bathe for me. I knew that I have to wear my blue uniform and blow my hair dry on my barbie dressing table set, with my purple barbie battery operated hairdryer, while my aunt gets ready for work. If I want to feel prettier in school that day, i must wake up when mummy asks me to so that she can tie my hair for me before she leaves for work. I cannot cry when my aunt drops me at the kindergarten near home at Towner Road. Sometimes, if i'm enough of a good girl, i get a small lunchbox full of cheezels to bring to school. I'll feel extra popular that day because all my friends would flock to me during break time.

When i reach home, i will play with my cooking set, barbie dolls, or watch cartoons. It is okay to cry to get attention when my brothers pull my hair. It is okay to cry and shout when my brothers cut off my barbie dolls' hair. It is okay to cry when my brothers wanna take my frying pan from me. Boys cannot play with girls toys. At night, we must let the maid bathe us, and we cannot play too long or we would catch a cold. We must not play in the room or jump about on the mattresses or daddy will bring the cane in and we will get cane marks on our legs, and our friends will laugh at us in school the next day.

We finally moved house when i was in primary one. There were air-conditioners in every room, it was big, we had a balcony, i love the new house. Primary school sucked because we cant have long hair. Every girl had mushroom heads. I hated primary school because i hate to hold my partner's hand. We have to line up according to height and i was always the first few. I hated the cheeky boy i had to sit with in class. I hated to brush my teeth after recess. I hated the snacks stall auntie because she always shortchanged me. I hated to hang around the bookshop hoping to save enough one day to buy the pretty notebook or pretty paper bag. I hated the girl in class with the super cool pencil box that has lots of compartments. When i finally had a cool pencil box that has a mini pinball game on the cover of the box, it got confiscated because the boy sitting beside me wanted to play with it. I hated spelling and ting xie because i must get full marks, if i get 70 and below, mummy wont sign.

Secondary school was when black and white started to blend a little. It was okay to copy during ting xie. It seemed like some sort of glory for the class to make the new english teacher cry. It was okay to exchange answers for homework first thing in the morning. It was okay not to study everyday after school. It was okay to hang out and go home at 5pm. It was okay not to pay attention in class. I hated the ah bengs in school. Hated my hair. Hated the way i looked. Hated the boy i had a crush on. Wished i could be like my friends.

For now, i guess my world is gray. There's no exact right or wrong. It's definitely okay for me to quit school. It's okay to sleep late and watch tv all night. It's only right that i spend money on masks and make up. It's only human for me to bitch about da bitch i dislike. It's great to talk on the phone all night. It's okay to not come home for the night. I can wear anything i like to school. I can have any nail and hair colour i like. I can hold hands in public. I dont cry when my brothers bully me, i guess it's more of me bullying them now. I can hang out with my brothers like good friends. It's only reasonable to talk back to my parents when i think i'm right. Adults arent always right, and i fear no cane marks.

I love my gray life. I love my gray friends, my gray family, my gray boyfriend, my gray values, my gray belongings, my gray clothes, my gray body, my gray home, my gray table, almost everything.

I like my world, in gray. Light gray.

The big but comes in at times though, when i have to make difficult choices and decisions that would affect my future, and i wished someone was there to make those choices for me.

But I'll remember what Joy said.

It's a waste of time to have regrets.

2009-03-22T22:52:00.006+08:00

Knowing how long he takes to shit, i laid on his bed and closed my eyes, hoping to steal a little naptime. All was peaceful until the happy man came into the room shouting "Let's go girlfriend!". I said "5 minutes more"... twice, before i dragged myself out of the room.

He drove as though he had a full bladder and needed a toilet bowl to appear right in front of him. We finally arrived, and he walked so fast, I had to jog abit to keep up with his mighty long legs. Coach shouted for him to be ready, as I made my way across the court, towards Celine, with my hands on my head.

The court was filled with men, and boys, warming up. The match started. It was so humid and i was sleepy. The lights were blurring and i find myself drowning and lost in the midst of the irritating sounds of the bouncing ball, whistles, and the assholic shoe screeching at times. My eyes started to wander.

There were other teams waiting for their match to start. One team had black and gold jerseys but weird warmup steps that made them looked like black and gold penguins and dancing monkeys. I realised that one of our team members resembled Tay Ping Hui, and one of them looked alot like ah pok, only smaller in build. I started to look at the benchwarmers. I wonder how they felt. It was boring, and I didnt even realised when boyfriend was on the court. The score was 65 to 47. I know they'll win. They always do.

3rd quarter and the opposing team started to get rough. I finally woke up from my silent monologue when boyfriend scored, and juliana and eunice went "Oh oh oh, he scored, did you see?!" It's funny how i always catch him missing the net instead of him scoring. It's great to have girlfriends with you during matches, but at times, i feel like a mum with my other mum friends, talking about how well their sons scored, which in this case, how great our boyfriends are on the court.

Number 5 from the opposing team was getting on my nerves. Boyfriend scored again and this time, i saw it. He missed lots of passes from his mates, i felt like making the world pause and going down to the court to smack him on his head. It was great seeing one of his very ANIMATED mate in the court. A little push from the opposing team and he could slide, roll on the floor, and act like he was in extreme pain, all for hope of a foul and free throw.

4th quarter, and i started to sit up straight. My butt cheeks were aching from sitting way too long on the hard bench, but i wasnt going to leave for a toilet break, not at such a critical moment. The score was 87 to 81.

The word 'fuck' first came out of my mouth when someone fell causing boyfriend to fall over him. The second 'fuck' came soon right after, when boyfriend missed a very critical shot, the score was 87 to 85 then. Jun Qiang was aiming and about to shoot, when two members of the opposing team lifted him up. I shouted "what the fuck! you fucking loser!" And all the girls started shouting "loser!". Sometimes, i wonder if the referees have the tendencies to side the losing team more out of sympathy. It was obviously a foul. An uncle beside me started to shout "Kayu!" Number 5 and 7 from the opposing team laughed, like it was all meant to be a joke. Yeah right, in the middle of such a critical moment, how cute.

The referees had a long discussion, and I WONDER WHY THE FUCK, both teams were granted free throws.

I suspect that team players reflect how their coaches are. There was a technical fault after that, the referee granted the opposing team 3 free throws, when they were only supposed to have 2. The opposing team's coach stood up and shouted, as though he was ready to fight. He looked like Ursula from the Little Mermaid. Maybe that's why your members are all unable to accept that they're losing my dear fat meat.

Last 10 seconds. And fuck. The scored was 87 to 87. Having been to so many matches, I finally understood how coach allocated members. Mr tay pin hui cant play under pressure i realised. He's always the hero during the first 2 quarters. Rui Quan was great in snatching the ball from the opposing team. Boyfriend can ony play well under pressure, extreme pressure.

There was an overtime. I prayed real hard. Boyfriend was on court. I swore to myself that I will never watch any of his matches again if he missed any critical shots. The members were tired the opposing team seem to be very alert all of a sudden. After lots of "fuck you!" and 'shit!", the score was 87 to 91. We were losing, and only 3.23 minutes left.

I pictured what would happen after the match. I would tell boyfriend that it was a good match even though they lost, and curse him deep down for wasting 2 hours of our precious weekends.

Boyfriend caught hold of the ball, but didnt look confident enough to shoot. Having no one else in sight that he could safely throw the ball to, he tried his luck, and he fucking scored! 3 points! I exclaimed "That's my boyfriend!" in my heart as the crowd cheered loudly for his lucky shot.

I felt my heartbeats quicken. The opposing team were granted free throws again and again, and i clapped each time they missed. Boyfriend caught hold of the ball again during the last 2 minutes or so. And he scored. 2 points. We won.

Boyfriend was the ~~last minute~~ hero tonight.

2009-03-21T01:32:00.001+08:00

I love our picture in the red ikea frame by my tableside.

I love you; rich or poor, healthy or sick.

2009-03-19T20:46:00.005+08:00

I've been hearing about how NS makes them dumb-er. I guess they probably make them weaker, cause my boyfriend totally zonks out by 10pm. They also make them become robots, cause he repeats the same line almost hourly throughout the day; "Girlfriend, I very shagged man". I really hope, pray, wish that this is some temporary condition, and that my boyfriend will fully recover by May next year.

The 9oclock housewife drama is making me real worried. I dont want to marry a man who I believe would bring me happily ever after and end up regretting ever after. And with the old granny's superb acting, I dont wanna live with my in-laws man! I know how nice boyfriend's parents are, I heard they're the sweetest and easiest to please, but still... scared. Oh, and how ann kok's husband love golf more than her?! Wa lao, it's just YOU LOVING BASKETBALL MORE THAN ME!!! But right, I dont believe my boyfriend will have that energy to continue with the club after we have kids. Dearest basketball player, if YOU break your promises to the kids, i will skin you and destroy all orange balls in the whole wide world.

Okay, I hate basketballs, seriously. The sound of it hitting the ground every second is damn irritating, so is the screeching sound made by the players' shoes. Oh, and I have to be damn alert at all times during matches because the balls might hit you anytime. Hate balls. Hate soccer too. Do you know that me slacking on your bed texting my friend, and you with your eyes glued to the green television screen watching men kicking one ball, IS NOT DATING?!

I love my boyfriend. So much so that sometimes, I wonder if that's my maximum. But at times, I fear that this is not love. Could it be dependancy? My boyfriend, like Valerie, is very independent. Valerie can live without seeing her boyfriend for weeks, I cant. I wonder if he'll become sick of me in future? Will he stop loving me suddenly because I've become fat and ugly after giving birth? Will we end up living together out of obligation?

Okay, I'm thinking and talking too much. And all these probably wont happen till at least 5 years later. I shall shut up.

Will all men treat their wives coldly and only warmly when they need sex?

Okay, the show is killing my wedding dream. i'm gonna ~~remain single and a virgin for the rest of my life.~~ stop watching.

I cant wait to see boyfriend tomorrow. It's like he have to be in jail for 5 days weekly. And no visiting!

Okay! I just cant shut up!

2009-03-15T02:35:00.005+08:00

Here's my huge project, going on for... weeks. And that's my mum, helping me with the difficult parts. My mum is one fuss-pot. She thinks that the blanket is damn ugly because of the uneven squares, the lines and all, and asked me not to tell anyone that she helped me. So, yeah, MY MUM HELPED ME.
my grandma's antique sewing machine.

And the final product.

It was really damn comfy, and i'm damn proud of it. One in the whole wide world.

Today, I learnt that love is a freaking funny blinding monster. We indulge in love, happily being blind. But when we're awake, we're crying bucketloads, hoping to be blinded by it again.

I wonder why is it that the closest people are always the victim of... everything. When i'm in a bad mood, i hardly show it to those who arent close but vent it at home instead. I'm sure most people are like that. And i always end up trying to brush away that awful sense of guilt.

And there are the minorities. They forsake the people closest to them, to please others. Perhaps they think that those closest should understand them better, but, it's those close ones who have to feel the love you have for them more. It's those closer ones whom you wont want to lose. It's those closer ones you wont want to disappoint just because you made some stupid minor promise that probably wouldnt matter to another someone else.

I got real mad at someone, whom i thought was a great friend last week. It really wasnt any of my business, I just felt very angry for my friend. Maybe he carelessly classified best friends as less important than his girlfriend. I could sense him drifting away a long long time ago. However, it was only from that day, that I realised that they have lost a friend, to love. Oh, so how noble is love now? Ironically, I wished my boyfriend was someone like him. I think I'm just lucky. Lucky that I'm able to talk to his friends, okay, definitely not all. Maybe he's the lucky one, lucky that I dont mind hanging out with his friends.

Would you prefer a hopelessly romantic friendless boyfriend, or mr popular block of wood?

2009-03-11T22:44:00.002+08:00

Eve's leadership and teambuilding project is in relation to the yellow ribbons project. To forgive. To give them another chance. To forget?

Women are known to be vicious and unforgiving creatures. I would prefer to call myself someone with a good memory. I'll forgive you, I'll still be nice, but damn it, i'll remember all the stuff you did. ALL.

I guess it's a personal problem, but i seem to have problems trying to forgive those who raped, those who broke up families, those who inflict hurt to others; who abused, who killed. Why in the hell should we give them another chance, when what they did can never be undone?

Will a vigin who got humiliated get her viginity and dignity back?

Will an elderly father, love of the family, who died during a robbery come back to live?

Will a child who was once abused be normal again?

Will a wife who was abused be able to believe in love again?

So, should we blame it all on the victim's luck, that misfortune have chosen to befall on them?

I read an article on capital punishment during SMU times. Some people find capital punishment too severe. Really? If it was your daughter who was raped, or if your father died because someone young and desperate for money had no other means other than to attack a frail old man, and killed him accidentally, will you try ways to lighten this man's sentence?

I will attend the talk for eve's project, as i've promised. Perhaps, though unlikely, it might change my view towards these... creatures.

Oh, and no. I dont feel bad feeling and thinking like that. Call me a bitch. There's a bitch in everyone.

2009-03-08T21:23:00.023+08:00

Look at this pretty boy! He's turning 21 on the tenth!

He had a birthday celebration at The Sentosa Singapore, Beaufort Hotel.

The room was HUGE lor. They upgraded the room for free. Didnt tell us the reason though.

Even got bathtub, but only boyfriend used it I think.

So, while I was helping the pretty boy collect memories, he was sneakily taking out all his alcohol.

Yup, the birthday boy was ADAM Loo Shi Kai!

He was damn lucky, cause 3 girls went to 'kai fang' with him.Even had a romantic walk to remember in the rain lor.
Because we had to find boyfriend, who didnt know where the car park was.

That day was quite terrible cause I havent completed the video I was editing for Shi Kai. And eve and I had to act like I was helping her with a project. And that Shi Kai KEEP COMING TO LOOK AT MY LAPTOP.

Eve, bored.

That day like wedding day like that, must take picture with EVERYONE.

Baby left for his basketball match, and the four of us went to Vivocity for dinner.

Stupid Shi Kai, wait for shutter bus also must pose until like that.
We wanted to have dinner at *MUST SHAVE!* But in the end, we went to Thai Accent cause the queue was damn long.

I damn act smart that day. Shi Kai asked me if i can take spicy, and I was thinking, how spicy can the dishes get, so i said can. I drank ONE MOUTH of the soup, and i cant take it already.
Adam trying to serve the soup, but too tall for his own good.

In the end, I only ate rice and tofu lor.
Benny came after that. He was damn nice!

We went back to beaufort after that. And Shi Kai's family was there already.

WE ALL LOVE CHRISTY!

She's damn sweet, seriously. I so want my daughter to be like her!

While waiting for Ah Ow to come. Shi Kai went to pick Ou Yong and Charmaine, and i went to get the video ready, suddenly, something happened, and we cant connect my laptop to the plasma screen! We asked Ou Yong to delay, and last minute, everything worked! We almost had an heart attack man! See, Mr Loo wanna tear already. It was planned by eve and i. Bert became our best friend for quite sometime. From buying him, to finally giving him to his life size lookalike.

And I realise that Mr Loo really changed A WHOLE LOT, since young.

After the video. Still cannot finish taking pictures.

Look like family picture right?! That's his sister and his niece.

Christy gave Shi Kai his birthday present. Wrapped in the blue paper was a new notebook and pen taken from Shi Kai's table. She's damn cute!!!

We were wondering why no one brought out the cake. Our side was waiting for his family, and turned out that his family was waiting for us too.

The cake was damn nice.

Adam's grandmother is damn cute lor! See the beer bottle in her hands! And here's Shi Kai, with his lookalike, being damn shy when we all sang the birthday song.

His family.

Buddies
Hot babes.Elmo. Bert. And i.

Him with boyfriend's gift.

With denise and eve's burberry in CK's plastic bag.
Only denise, eve, adam, boyfriend and i stayed over.

We played taboo.

and TWISTER.

After one game, i was freaking tired already.

I laughed until my stomach cramp man.

Luckily boyfriend decided to soak in the bathtub. I cant imagine such a big gorilla playing with us. We will all be squashed! Haha.We all became quite high after that. Okay, except boyfriend, who was snoring. And denise, who was surfing the web, sinfully.

I shall only post shi kai's and his BERT. Notice the pink star around bert's neck? It's my rubber band, but it made Bert looked like a star lor.

I think we must have been real bored. Because eve started doing yoga.

And shi kai started trying.Eve, kai and i went to the super shiok room, to have wine, and...

heart to heart talk(which didnt happen).

Shi Kai and his black undies! Look like right?!He look like some big pervert, waiting to trick girls into bed.And eve... sipping wine... looking quite shag.. totally... fits my story. haha. Adam the big pervert, trying to con eve.

The bed was damn shiok, Shi Kai and baby slept outside, on the couch. They both woke up quite early cause I could hear them yakking away in the morning.

Stupid shi kai, trying to get an ugly shot of me. Checked out. Waiting for the boys and their cars.

The hotel lobby. The hotel was beautiful, quiet, and the service was damn good!

Shi Kai brought us for lunch. Insisted on treating us.

Happy birthday Loo. I hope you liked the video and all the gifts, and most importantly, feel our LOVE!

I think Bert became popular overnight. Haha. At least, more popular than elmo that night.

Love, from all of us.

*We wanted to go to Marche for dinner, but that stupid Shi Kai heard it as must shave, and was wondering why denise told him to shave. DAMN FUNNY! Joke of the day.

2009-03-08T21:06:00.003+08:00

Kbox with Eve and EJ on friday. This time, I was the only one who was self-highing, while the both of them suffered the SMU virus.

2009-03-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

Our project execution has been fun so far. Lots of friends came down to support us. And, everyone really knows everyone else. I have loads and loads of pictures to upload.
Bird made this for me. I'm sooooo super duper touched. And she came down to our booth even though she's sick. I love you! We must go out next week. Rayner! I must see you next week too!

I have two very cute men in my life. My dad came home and said "let's order pizza tonight and celebrate." He said it was his 6th year anniversary of him quitting smoking. Damn funny. And my boyfriend. He called me and he asked who was i referring to in the last post. I was like "EH! YOU LA!"

2009-03-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

Dear you,

I'm soooooooooooo in love with you.

I've never felt like this before, and to think I've always been sceptical of the magic of love.

'I love you" doesnt seem to be enough to express all the overflowing love i have for you.

With too much love, Sab.

2009-02-27T02:45:00.007+08:00

Gerald's nick is "Sabri, who sacrificed to go to your farewell dinner?"

I was freaking an hour late.
And you guys were damn sweet la!
We were all very tensed cause Kelvin always win!

My Suzuki the mouse.

EVE! I realised Jeremy is in this picture!

Gerald's damn disgusting animal.

Pussyboots.

I have no idea why they snapped this. No idea at all.

Gerald, when I learn how to use photoshop, I will photoshop myself away okay. Hahaha.

I didnt win any games lor. Just when i thoughy my team won Taboo, Kelvin's team won us by ONE card! ONE CARD LOR! And I was third in Ugly ugly. We must ban kelvin from going to Settlers next time.

And Nelson is freaking funny in this picture. He cant smile properly at all. He's sick anyway.

This is so like a family picture.

I felt like an idol because everyone wanna take pictures with me. X) See you sweets for our CATS Musical!

*Supper with Han Wei & Elvinooi after that.

2009-02-25T21:12:00.010+08:00

20th February Friday. Dinner with Val, kp and Car at Changing Appetites at Marina Square.

Admiring my pretty pink nails, again. Hahaha.

I was the last to arrive, but my food was first to be served. Dory fish. kp's cheesy chicken. The both of us had a lot of requests. Dont want onions, dont want pickles, change this change that. Car's huge portion of ribs.We waited damn long for Val's order, I asked her to have my plate of fries first, which, didnt taste very nice.Car is damn cute here. "CAR! If i'm a guy, I sure die die marry you!"
And they ordered this for me before I came.

It was a huge ice cream cake, and in the end, we all realised that we all didnt like mint.

Car's very cute camera.

We went to sit by the river to gossip and bitch.I went for breakfast with Baby on Sunday morning.

He's freaking cute. We made another attempt to fly our kites again. He told me that he's never been kite flying before. When he was a kid, he'd take his mum's thread and tie it to an a4paper and throw it out of the window, and fly that. Damn cute! I can totally imagine him doing that. Oh, we didnt fly our kites in the end. Haha.

Monday, I went for lunch with Joy, to do some catching up. After which, kbox with Eve and Gerald.The both of us were freaking high and crazy that day. I think we gave Gerald a huge shock.

Okay, i'm off to do my research on oprah and a little essay for Ou yong.

2009-02-19T00:15:00.002+08:00

Submitting the withdrawal form wasnt as easy as i thought.

I didnt attend class that morning, didnt see the need to anyway. Met ed at SIM, and we went to SMU. I was hoping I wont bump into anyone at the concourse. Anyway, they had to interview me! And I wasnt prepared at all. I did use some points that Gerald gave.

I'm doing what I like now. Crafts. Cutting, pasting, and making a big mess in my living room. I shall start practicing my dusty electone. Revise stats and law on my own. Start jogging. Read. Revamp my table. And do lots and lots of reflection.

I think I'm happy now.

2009-02-17T01:54:00.002+08:00

I'm experiencing the same old feeling I did last semester, only this time, it's worst. It's heartbreaking to leave all your friends, PLUS, everyone is trying to make you stay! I have to explain over and over again, my reasons, and face the same reactions, deal with their arguments (oh boy oh boy), assure them that I'll still hang out with them, and sometimes admit that i'm stupid to have made such a decision.

I really really want to stay in the same school, especially after making so many friends, and realising how all of them are sad that i'm leaving. Believe it or not, I almost cried while telling my ltb mates about my withdrawal, they looked at me with stunned faces, stunned and sad faces. It's almost as though I could read the questions in their minds, like, their thoughts were popping out, like thoughts bubbles. WHY?WTH?HUH?

But oh well, i dont think it's worth the risk, to endure and get a very low GPA. It's not that I'm sure I'll get better results at UOL, but I could try. I feel dead at SMU.

I promise we'll hang out. I'll go for CTG1's kbox and steamboat sessions. Coffee and shopping with Valerie and Carissa. BONDING sessions with Corliss, EJ and the rest of MAD. Bitching with bird. Girl-seeing with Gerald. Laugh at Nelson's dirty jokes. Listen to high class music with Jayson. More bitching with Eve.

*Oh my god! And gerald is freak sweet! He wants to plan a CTG1 farewell party for me. Hahahhahaa! I love y'all so much!
**But i'm still leaving.

Good night charming people.

2009-02-16T01:12:00.004+08:00

I love the guy who makes an effort to remove the prawn shell for me no matter what. Even though he hates the smell on his hands.

When I received this bouquet of 13 roses, I told him that he was freaking sweet because he meant it to be a surprise, but i kinda suspected already. Anyway, after that, I asked him where he bought it because the wrapping's terrible. Just look at the colour mismatch.

And he told me he bought it from the market andhe actually wrapped it himself! FREAK LOR! HE'S SUPER SWEET! And he went like "Huh, really very ugly ah?" Damn cute!
Oh my god, I'm so in love with you.

Beetle on his bed. GOLD lor.

I'm doing my essay now. Probably my last essay for SMU. Haha. And it's the first time I do my SMU stuff freaking last minute, and to think I'm still blogging. Good night world.

2009-02-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

Happy sugar honey mustard chessy sashimily 23rd month sweetpeas!!!

This is my favourite picture of us.

Okay, let's have a happy weekend!

2009-02-12T02:30:00.004+08:00

the many faces you have. or rather, the many masks you put on everyday scares me.

you came across as a friendly and bubby girl at first.

you transform into quite a hot babe. haha. we loved making fun of you and your year one picture.

you have lots of suitors. flings? love stories. we love listening to them. serves as good gossip as well.

loved meet ups with you.

forgave you.

but you did it again

you are fucked up weird.

where's your dignity. where's your heart. where's the pretty girl i used to loved.

~~you're one huge fatass bitch. not that you ass is big anyway.~~ you're one flat ass bitch.

just go far far away will ya?

2009-02-12T00:41:00.003+08:00

valerie and corliss think that i should do what i really want to and be happy.

gerald knows i gave it a real good thought and should go ahead and be happier.

nelson's asking me to start with my essay 2, and i havent got the guts to tell him of my decision.

i havent got the guts to tell the many other new friends i made.

maybe because i've got enough of people thinking that i'm crazy.

and others trying to persuade me to stay. (my god, i love you guys!)

I know i might not be happier leaving, but i'm definitely not happy here. i dont mind trying. school should be a fun and happier place to be in. I've heard already, that anyone who can get over smu, can get over any working condition. i've heard of the good future the degree promises. I dont need to have a very high post at work, i just want a simple job that i like. getting a degree is just my passport to that(since i definitely wont want a job related to infocomm). i wanna be happy in school. i hated the course infocomms, but i was happy doing presentations and projects. i loved studying for exams. everyone helped everyone.

i cant believe that i'm in my dream course and i'm leaving, but this probably mean that it's not for me.

smu is not the place for me.

Oh, you know how they go, "dont worry, you're not stupid", and stuff like that?

I know that already. thanks.

but some other people just have to go on reminding me that i might be really stupid. shut up. you really should, IF, in the first place, you cant enter that school.

everyone have different levels and types of stress they can take. dont tell me that all schools are the same if you've never been in there, you'll never know. it might not be as bad as i make it seem to. everyone have their own set of priorities. mine is to be happy, at least, happier than now.

i dont know why am i explaining myself so much. maybe i just need more people to support me so that i can get over the hidden doubts i have.

BAD STUFF ASIDE.

Baby came to surprise me earlier. he was freaking cute. he told me last week that he have nights out on wednesday. and he told me they took that away on monday, so he could only see me on friday. anyway, i called him when i finally woke up from my 15 hours of sleep. and he said he was doing nothing, but he'll call me back. so i asked why, since he had nothing to do. he put me on loudspeaker, and you know what, i could hear that he's driving. and why would he put me on loudspeaker if he was in camp.

anyway, he bought me cheescake.

oh, he had to leave in a shortwhile, and so, we only talked at my door. he suddenly pointed to the back, at my table, and said "oh you made something for me?!" I panicked and said "what!".

guess what.

he laughed and said "so you did make something for me"

asshole. i love you.

2009-02-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

You know how softhearted I can be at times. Just whine to me, and I'll most probably give in. That's what happened last semester. I think the will is so strong this time, it's not gonna happen again.

It's all set.

It's a little heartbreaking, but still, it's what I really want.

I'll keep my promises.

We'll be friends forever.

2009-02-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

I AM DEAD LA!

From my last entry until now, I DIDNT READ ANY ARTICLE AT ALL.

My mind seem to be set on leaving already.

Rayner, you're gonna be my new best friend man.

Si liao la. This time really die.

But but but, I'm gonna meet Rayner for movie like, soon.

2009-02-07T15:56:00.003+08:00

I'm digging out my olevels and diploma certs to apply for SIM banking and finance. I'm quite psyched about it.

I kinda thought that my parents are STILL against the idea, cause my mum has been constantly reminding me about what i told her during my last holidays; if i complained about school during the next semester (ie what i'm going through now), she can just ignore my rantings because i'd probably get over it by the end of the semester. Plus, they suddenly find the need to remind me about my schoolwork every weekend, when I finally have time to go out.

AND my dad's been wanting to get me a new lighter laptop due to my endless complaints of arm aches and the sentence "I'm gonna throw that stupid laptop and jump on it" coming out of my mouth all the time. So, today, my mum told me that she told my dad not to get me the new laptop in case i really switch schools. I was damn angry cause I was wondering what has getting a lighter laptop got to do with me changing schools. Does it mean that if i go to SIM, i dont deserve a new and lighter laptop?

Anyway, turns out that my mum thought that I wouldnt need one if I go to SIM.

My mum is totally in favour of me applying for SIM, considering the fact that she was discussing about SIM fees with me earlier. I guess she's sick of my ramblings and tempers i throw at least once a week.

I know of people who will kill me upon reading this; Eve, and my dear Valerie.

Anyway, i was really pissed with my laptop and the bloody bus 88 earlier! I had to hold on to the railing cause it's almost impossible to balance in the jerky bus. But that would mean that I'll onlyhave one free hand to hold my laptop. You may find it extremely amusing, BUT, i cant hold my laptop for more than 1 minute with one hand. It's too heavy, my arms will start to tremble. Yes, it's that heavy, but I do have guy friends in SMU who said that my laptop was heavy too. If guys can say that, it means that it's really too heavy for my skinny arm.

Okay, I really should start reading my articles. 10 ARTICLES lor. And i have to complete my essay outline by this week, otherwise, i can just fail my stats mid term. I dont know what's wrong with me. I have the plans to quit but I still wanna study for my papers and do my essays.

Is there any occupation that allows you to complain all day? I think that job would fit me like a glove man. (Okay slaps myself! I cant stop typing! Even if I stop typing, my brain will be talking non stop when I'm reading my articles, ok, i'm gonna cook maggie first)

*I miss you!!! Saturdays dont feel like saturdays without you.

2009-02-07T01:33:00.004+08:00

The few precious hours with YOU.I told him that I wanna go to venice and rome someday, and he asked me to put up the pictures.

So here's Veniceand Rome.

School later on!!! And I have to go home after that cause it's dateless weekend. I HATE SMU. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE. I had a long talk with him earlier. 30 minutes talk with him on the phone is considered long, cause we hardly talk on the phone, even during courtship. So, he said that even if i cant get a job in future because i totally fail, he'll take care of me. And he'll open my very own company for me to do whatever i like with it. I wonder why women love listening to such lies, but whatever it is, i'm loving it!

2009-02-06T02:27:00.004+08:00

I think we all lie to ourselves too much, just so we can sleep better at night and get through the days ahead.

We'll never know if we're gonna live happily ever after, we just decide to believe that we will.

I choose to believe that the people who I picture to be my man, to be at my graudation, to be at my wedding, people who will walk along my side, till i perish into the light, will always stand by me. I choose to believe that my prayers will be answered every night. I choose to believe in so many things.

We all have different dreams, different beliefs, different every other things.

But we all share one destination; happiness.

When we get there, I'll give you a long kiss, and we'll release balloons and colour the sky, sing duets out loud, fly our hand made kite, explore the woods, watch dvds over and over again, cook dinner, dance under the stars, and wake up in each others' arms, to celebrate our love that went that far.

2009-02-06T00:39:00.003+08:00

Today is heavy books day. I have to bring my AW file, law file, stats file, AW textbook, and law textbook. I decided to wear my new white sandals to make myself feel better about school today.

Dear Adzfar brought my stats notes today, which is the super thick file that Jayson loaned me. It was just as well, since I needed to get the notes back fast as mid terms is in two weeks!

So, i ended up with a super thick load to carry, and my new pretty sandals, giving me bad blisters.

I swear swear swear, my arms were about to break! When I reached home, my arms were trembling! I'm so gonna have muscles. No no no, I already have muscles lor!

The bus and train rides were terrible! I had no seat, and no poles or handle to hold on to, imagine trying to balance with such a heavy load.

Anyway... I'm considering cutting my fringe... bangs. Should I?

Okay, I'm so not doing my hmwk, just bought a top from citrusalley. I should just kill myself, i'm beyond cure.

2009-02-05T00:00:00.001+08:00

looks like i'll have to fight this war alone.

2009-02-04T19:14:00.005+08:00

The dumb groom.

Chinese New Year week was great. Shopping for new year clothes for guys was great too.

At wai po's house. Spot the big mosquito bite on my left leg.
Baby's birthday celebration at COCA last last Saturday.

Ouyong and Charmaine's 14th as well.

2009-02-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

I MISS YOU LA!!!

And i'm so bloody pissed off with the news you've definitely surprised me with. Now i've got nothing to look forward to for the weekends. Dont even have mood to do my fucking acad writing stuff now.

I hate school even more.

Fuck it.

2009-02-02T01:35:00.003+08:00

Dear zongxuan,

you're probably in a deep deep sleep right now, sharing the same wish with me; that May 2010 comes real quick. I'm just done printing all my articles that i'll have to read on tuesday, and about to start reading two articles due on thursday. I decided that I should write to you, as a reward of going through the pain of finding the articles, as well as the asshole printer being down earlier. I forgot when was it that I decided, that writing to you was an escape for me.

"Do you think it's because of me?", I remembered the silly question you asked me when I told you how much I hated school weeks ago. My parents probably thought so, but it's never the case for me. I know clearly that it's you, that always gave me the strength to go through with it. Although I have to admit that during the times when we werent together, I used you as a bad reason for me to continue SMUing.

everytime i cry bucketful of tears because of schoolwork, the only remedy would be your voice. Hugs and kisses are impossible solutions, although they may be the best. When you say "girlfriend, just fuck it and go to sleep", it makes me feel like finally someone thinks that it's not stupid to fuck it and forget about school work.
When I worry about my future, you'll tell me that we'll weld together.
When I hate school, you said you'll burn it down for me.
When I worry about your many trips you have to make soon, you said two years will be real quick.
When I cry and hate sunday nights, you'll tell me that fridays come real quick.
When I tell you about how much I hate you to book in, you'll look for me during nights out.
When I was having breaks alone, you came to have lunch with me.

As much as I wonder if life would be better after May next year, and if happiness really comes after 4 years, I know you'll be with me. With you, I learnt that with love, we can overcome so so so much. At the end of the day, it doesnt matter if I'm a graduate, or if you were any officer, what our pay would be like, if we went to pretty places today, or if you broke your minor promises. What matters most is the feelings we share, when we hug each other, watching channel 8 in your room. That is why I make sure that we have some time, just to hug each other for a while every week.

I've always thought that you were just making excuses for yourself for not being serious when you said that it's always good to be a happygolucky person, that it's never worth it to put too much pressure on yourself, that you just wanted me to smile. I've always thought that you were not being mature enough at times, only to realise now that you have always been wiser, and much much more mature than me. True enough, it was your happygoluck-iness and your stupid jokes that made me smile everytime, whether if it's due to schoolwork, or if you made me mad.

Oh, I cant believe that I'm saying this, but sometimes, when i read your lame text msgs, I learnt that some of the jokes you make to make me forget about the stress in school, actually contains alot of sense. I just cant help but wonder if you meant it the wise way or not. Haha.

Alright, enough escape for me, time for reality! I love you wu. Always wondered how people could use that everyday on the same person. Now I know, saying that every moment is still not enough to tell you how much love for you is squeezing in my little heart.

Bunny.

2009-02-01T22:11:00.002+08:00

The worst part of life is whenever he has to book in. I mean, yes, he does piss me off sometimes, but after everything, I realise that I really really REALLY love his company.

I wonder if it's school or him serving NS, that makes me hate school all the time. When he didnt have to book in for the whole of last week, school did seem a little better. The whole week was great and worry free.

He's got guard duty today, and he booked in the morning, but I could talk to him anytime I want, just that I slept through the day. I called him, when i finally decided to face reality and get my ass off my comfy bed. I asked if everything will be much better after his NS, and if I'll finally be happy after I graduate. He said yes. But happiness isnt supposed to be a destination, right?

I've always thought that it's just me, but after getting to know more friends, I realised that so many of them are hating school as much as me. The only thing that makes me different from them is that I lack the drive. How come they can still do so well and look happy going through something they dislike so much?

Well, I'm stuck with school, that's for sure. I used to have an alternative, of quitting, but now, no matter how hard it gets, quitting is last on my list.

I'd rather be stuck in that nightmare I had earlier, when two of my teeth fell out and I was in school, than to get back to the real school. I could wake up anytimeI want from that, but I'm stuck for 4 years in the bloody real one. Ass.

2009-01-28T04:49:00.004+08:00

We always end up with someone who is far from who we wished for, but mine is too far.
I wished for someone who puts me above everyone else, and not put everyone else above me.

I wished for someone who will speak up for me, and not put me down in front of everyone.

I wished for someone who will at least have the basic moral value and keep his promises.
But then again, a leopard never changes his spots.
Worse still, I tried to paint the spots to hide them away.
I gave that leopard more than a thousand chances.

My friends think that I'm one of the smartest girl around.

But I know that I'm actually stupid.

Worse still, I think I'll continue being stupid, cause I dont have the strength to give up.

You'll probaby be happy, knowing that you still have more than a million chances.

2009-01-21T23:42:00.005+08:00

Birthday surprise.

It was supposed to be ed and i, but she had to take care of eddrick last minute. So we brought him along.
Shopping with him is freaking tiring, he's so active, and noisy!

And he says the funnisest things ever!

And then, we went to surprise zx. I thought he kinda suspected that I was calling his buddy and stuff, but he was really surprised. And so, I'm really happy!

Eddrick is damn cute when he pouts!

Walking to the car. Eddrick was asking if we were going to zx's car, he likes his car cause he thinks it's COOL.

Eddrick was damn noisy in the car, before that, I told him to zip his mouth, and he said his zip was spoilt. Damn funny! So i said I'll swe it up, and he said his mouth was made of metal. He told zx the same thing when zx told eddrick to zip up, and he said "so i have to keep talking and talking and talking". Damn cute! And smart, and terribly naughty.

830 class later on, I'm freak tired, but I've got law notes to copy. I think I might flunk law, I havent been doing any readings, and every lesson, I just hope the time past faster so that I can end my super long Thursday.

I shall put everything aside, and enjoy my chinese new year.

2009-01-21T03:33:00.003+08:00

I'M DONE WITH MY CRITIQUE ON HAIG'S ARTICLE.

Am i the happiest girl on earth already? Not quite. Due to this article, I havent been revising or keeping up with stats and law. I freaking hate law can. It seems interesting in class but I go home realising that I cant remember anything. And i so have to start practicing for stats!!! I havent even start on the homework due next week. My new year is gone seriously.

And the number of nights I stayed up to do my draft, read the damn article over over over and over again, and finally completing my critique. I have like super a lot of pimples now. Oh, and I havent checked through yet, and so far, only ed proof read my essay. If I nudge you in msn to read my essay, please do!!! I'm really not confident about my grammer and my stand.

Okay, time to pamper myself for two weeks of work. I am the happiest girl on earth for a while. X)

Good night beautiful earth.

2009-01-19T23:25:00.005+08:00

*edited. This was supposed to be posted on the 20 January. Not that I'm dumb enough to forget his birthday, just that I cant change the timestamp.

Happy 23rd birthday sweetpeas!

You'll be 30 soon, then 40, 50, 60, then 100.

You'll age, you'll retire, and turn ugly.

But I'll walk with you, till the very end.
i love you.

2009-01-18T23:46:00.004+08:00

Dear you, thanks for giving me your everything, especially your 'secrets'.Thanks for getting me strepsils when I have sore throat, for accompanying me when i'm scared, for wishing me luck and promising me, sometimes, the impossible.
For being there. For trying to make me feel better about school. For making me smile or laugh. For cheering me up. For your assuring hugs.
For watching me swallow 2 bottles of po zhai yin 3 by 3 (pill by pill), and patiently waiting for me cause you die die want me to finish it. I super love you.

And I cant wait till i see you again.

2009-01-13T17:34:00.002+08:00

I was super duper early for class today, class starts at 1015am, and I'm already sitted by 1006. I'm super proud. One of my new year resolution is never to be late for school again. But yes, I hope you all understand, new year resolutions hardly work. So anyway, my prof went through the quiz answers, it was out of 2 marks, and i think i only scored half mark. haha.

Oh oh oh, and I finally have friends in acad writing class! Edmund from my BGS and this guy, who said he was from my law class. It really doesnt matter if i dont recognise anyone, as long as they recognise me and be my friend, that'll do, seriously. I am so desperate for friends in smu.

I cant help but feel secretly happy, when i know that i won jayson in that how-many-friends-you-can-spot-at-the concourse game that day. And saying hi wasnt that bad really, I used to think that people wont recognise me at all, so I'd wait for them to say hi. Saying hi is different, and quite fun, especially when you have to compete.

Anyway, it's really a happy week. And i'm happy today, because I have everything i wanna buy on Friday in my head. I am gonna take a nap soon. I cant wait to get the stuff I want. I love flightless bird, american mouth. I love my red file. I love tying up my hair at home. I am gonna do my nails later. And I survived one week of school.

And I'm real excited to start on my essay draft, due this friday, about life and death.

Okay, like real.

2009-01-13T01:45:00.008+08:00

Saturday was my Grandfather's birthday.

We had a catered buffet outside his house.
Samson is freaking cock when he took this, seriously.
And my mum is super cute, she went like "I'm finally taller than him!"
Yeah, remember how dad loves my teeth. And I totally look like a dummy here. I think I was telling Sam something. Oh, Ed would love my dummy picture.
I met Rayner for talks-over-supper after that. Banana prata was great.

Sunday morning.

We woke up so early, so that we could have breakfast with owyang who just returned from Brunei, but he left us alone.

Ouyong, breakfast was great without you. X)

New year shopping after that. Followed by Chinatown.This time, with ouyong.

My favourite windows.

I think this green-haired man is totally aware that I'm taking a picture of him.And we had ice cream from the prank man.

I'm just done with my articles, and i'm freaking sleepy right now! Quiz in the morning, someone kill me. I dont wanna say I hate smu anymore, at least not at home, lest my parents think it's due to relationship problems. Parents, great stereotypists, generalizers, you name it.

So, good night world, and wish me all the luck I need. Loves.

2009-01-10T02:29:00.018+08:00

Met up with my BGS girls on Wedesday, since it was a no-school day. We gave Car her birthday prezzie as well, her birthday's in December by the way.

I brought the girls to Waraku at Marina Square, the one near Carls Jr.
Taking a picture of Car taking a picture of me.

The start-school faces.

The greatest girls in school.

And Val look terribly cute here.

Friday, met up with Denise and Eve.

Had dinner at Pasta de Waraku, also at Marina Square, but different level.

We sat there for a long time, we didnt know if we wanna go clubbing or singing.

We ended up heading for ice cream at the esplanade.

Okay, I look damn ugly here.

They were having some sort of band thing, and the moment, the very moment we went to have a look, it ended.

We were trying to take a shot under the lamp post.

And suddenly, this lady came and asked us if we needed help, she was damn nice, she even asked us to see if we liked the picture, otherwise, she'd take another shot for us.
The nice lady and her guy.

We ended up at Starbucks. And i'm so sad, cause Christmas is over, and they no longer have toffee nut latte.

This shot was damn funny. Eve have the funniest thoughts ever!

So Denise tried to take a shot of all of us. And she went, "Shit, I cut away my own face!"

On the second attempt, she went 'Shit, now only got Sab's face, I dont wanna take already."

Great week I had. Not looking forward to the following weeks, since the real torture's coming. I'm so pissed cause I cant find my assigned reading for Acad writing, and I have no friends in the class. Can you believe it, I sit alone! Haha, but whatever, cant wait for year two.

Denise, if you're reading this, guess what, it's 5.37am and I havent removed my make up!

2009-01-09T03:23:00.002+08:00

I'm so sleepy and tired. I slept at 3am last night and woke up at 6am this morning. Had lessons from 830 am to 645 pm, reached home at 2am. I feel weak. But on happy days like that, I prefer to sleep late, so that the happy day wont end so soon. After exchanging so many things for this moment, you only became more precious. And boy, I love you so.

2009-01-06T22:01:00.002+08:00

I finally caught Twilight. It was so beautiful. I dont know why I get so amazed and mesmerized by such fantasies all the time, and the other side of me knows that it's bullshit cause it will never happen. There cant be such strong love. I just know.

Jay was real nice. He brought his stats notes for me today, it was a thick file, and I bought my Law and Acad writing texts today. He carried all my books for me, and when I was leaving, he asked if I wanted him to help me with my load, he could carry it and send me to Tampines, and take a bus home. He lives in Yishun! So anyway, I decided to carry it home all by myself.

Today's not a good day, cause, I have a new pimple on my left cheek, I felt like walking home in the evening but the load was way too heavy for me to do so, I wanna change places with the sparrows that flew past my blocks, I have thoughts of school all over my mind, and, I just hate living, for a moment. I have loads of notes and worksheets to print, new textbooks to wrap, files to pack. My prof said we could start saving the trees after we graduate. And lastly, I have to lie to myself, that I'm all ready, to go through the 4 months SMU torture.

Today's a good day, cause I met Edward. Haha, alright, going crazy, I think I'm gonna fall for fair guys now. Edward is sooooooooooo. Argh! Jay got me the OST for twilight, my mind is filled with Edward while listening to it.

Awwwww, Edward.

*And fuck, the printer bloody ran out of ink at this time! When I still have soooo much to print! Fuck.

2009-01-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

I kinda thought things would change for the better, by nature. Until waiting and waiting and waiting, and nothing happened, then I decided to move my butt and do something.

I dont know if I did the right thing. I dont know if everything will turn out the way I want it to be. I dont care, if I looked stupid and all, I just want to be happy at the end of the day. I just want to sleep well everynight. I just want to move on, with no regrets.

School later on. I got into the same LTB group as my friend Corliss, and I'm happy, for now. Good night world.

2009-01-05T01:41:00.002+08:00

I cant believe that the holidays are over and I'm going to school, in... 13 hours time. Kill me.

I hope I can survive another sem, I know there's Val, my CT friends and Jay in SMU, and Ed, sergeant, denise, zx and all others out here. I cant wait for the next 13 weeks to past. I hope all of y'all would bear with me, if I complain too much about school.

I think 2008 was a real roller coaster for me. I was very very happy, very very stressed, very very sad, very very mad, everything was the extreme.

It feels like a long nightmare. It's time to go back to reality now, and it seems that reality means, staying in that nightmare forever.

2009-01-04T05:10:00.005+08:00

I've never eaten at Little India before. We really wanted to have dinner then, but in the end, we only had a snack there.

Jay got me these indian glass bangles. He loved the colours, and I love the sound it makes.

We ended up having frog porridge at Geylang.

It was my first time, and I think I'm liking frog meat already, only if someone remove the meat and veins for me.

2009-01-04T02:35:00.018+08:00

He said "You look like you just bought that piece of land"
I've never heard of the URA before.

So anyway, this is how my whole estate looks like.
The materials they use.
And their workshop.

Ngee Ann City.

Cineleisure.

I love the colourful laundry.

We went to the Buddha Tooth Relic Temple after that.
It's the most beautiful temple I've ever been to.

Love the red.

And gold.

And the details.

And the lights.

And the lifts.

I bought one of this mini wind chime.

The garden at the roof top was beautiful, and a great place to talk, or just sit and dream.

See, even the dustbins are so pretty. I was asking Jay if it was really a dustbin, then, two other guys came along, and they were talking about the same thing. It really was a dustbin, that was too pretty.

We hanged around Chinatown. I think this picture reminds me alot of KL. I dont know why.

Throughtout the trip, Jay reminds me to remember that we're tourists.

I love this lamp. I forgot where I snapped it at.

I realised that if I try to really believe that I'm not in Singapore, Chinatown becomes prettier, and I feel happier.

I love the balls of lights here.

And this stall, reminds me so much of Bangkok.

I saw lots of pretty windows, and buildings, but both our cameras went out of batt.

2009-01-03T01:18:00.002+08:00

The past few days, have been like an escape for me. Mini adventures, acting as tourists, going to pretty places, taking pictures of lights, windows, and pretty dustbins, walking too much, and trying out food that I have never taken before.

I kinda realise why they say be careful of what you wish for, cause it just might come true.

I've found everything I wanted, but I kinda wish to make that same mistake again. If, you know what I mean.

2009-01-01T03:38:00.003+08:00

My new year's eve with 2 macho guys.

Date, Rayner Baby.

Lightbulb, Jonathan Xie.

This little boy was playing peekaboo with us while we were at Starbucks. He's super cute seriously!

The dumb movie ended at 12 plus, we had trains back, but by the time I reached Pasir Ris, there's no more bus service. I was intending to walk home, then Rayner called and said he would come to Pasir Ris just to send me home. DAMN NICE RIGHT?! I was super touched! Love you sooo much!

Happy New Year!

2008-12-28T19:31:00.003+08:00

Someone's christmas gift for me.

I super duper love snow globes.

I went to the zoo and the night safari yesterday. It was beautiful at the night safari.

2008-12-26T00:07:00.002+08:00

Cold christmas eve. Met up with my CT friends, before joining Ed.

Not happy today. Not happy at all. Christmas ends, and new year rushes in, which means school school and more school. I'll be alone, frustrated, angry, and stressed up everyday.

2008-12-21T00:17:00.005+08:00

Love at Starbucks with Valerieeeeeee.

Love Christmas!!!

I was so proud of my nails. Didnt think it was impressive until people keeps thinking I did a manicure, and goes "wow" when I said I did it myself.

Shrek! She was wearing a green hairband, and none of us thought of Shrek, until we saw Kiang Pin and she mentioned it.

I think Valerie looks very sweet in the picture below.

Trying to smile with my teeth.
She said that smiling without her teeth made her have cramps in her mouth.

We really wanted to take pictures with this not-fat-enough Santa, we chased after him.

Love Christmas. So pretty everywhere.

Oh, we caught 'Yes Man', good show. I asked Val if she'd quit smu with me after the movie, and she said "YES!" We hate school. Especially with our sucky GPA.

2008-12-14T21:37:00.005+08:00

Rayner's 21st Birthday!!!

Gathering at his house on friday night, the 12th of December.

Rayner, looking at the nicest card in the whole wide world, and looking damn happy.

The food was damn good. Deeeeeelicious! Ed and I took alot, and I was too shy to get seconds.

Ed and I wanted to take a nice picture togther so that we could keep it in our wallets. But her attempt failed twice.

Attempt 1.

Attempt 2.

Little Giselle. She's one super sweet girl! Ed asked her who was prettier, and she said both, cause she had 2 hearts, so she liked both of us! And she told me she liked me, cause I was taller, and I had eye shadow on. Damn cute!!!

Rayner giving his birthday speech.

Cake-cutting time.

I love the cake lor! Banana and chocolate!

Rayner and family.

Rayner and his two girlfriends.

Rayner and poly boys.

Rayner and Sean.

Had fun, looking at "hot girls' with baofa, and louis and gang.

*Am watching Superman Returns right now. I am so so so in love with little Superboy, Jason! Sooooooo sweet and cute! Alright, back to show! Love actually coming up next!

Monday blues tomorrow. Boo.

2008-12-10T23:33:00.012+08:00

Tuesday, 9 October 2008.

I didnt go to work, had dinner with my family, but before that, we went to get dumbbells. It was damn heavy! I tried lifting it, and I cant!

Samson's kek sai face.

They had to take turns to carry the load.

My brothers.

I love love love love love love sashimi!!! I ate damn alot that day!

Samson, and mummy.

Dennis.

Valerie! See, my nice guy peeling prawn shell for me! Hahaha.

Daddy.

Mummy. My dad refuse to snap when I smile without my teeth. So I had to show my teeth.

God-mum (Aunt).

I said "Sam, later he turn he sure get shocked." but Dennis NEVER turn.

I think my mum looks damn cute here.

And, my Dennis grow up already.

2008-12-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

I was so so so pissed with blogger and facebook earlier, I shall blog about dinner another day.

I kinda wished everything could start anew, after that incident, but sadly, it only made me feel worse. It sucks, when you finally decided to put aside everything, and start all over again, and BAM! Something have to happen to make you... dont feel like starting over again, again.

Okay, whatever, headache. Sleeping time. Bye sucky world.

2008-12-04T23:32:00.002+08:00

I am totally totally totally tired. I wish I could ask the voices from my heart and mind to shut up.

And so, I realised that playing around, only gives you excitment and comfort, for a lil while.

2008-12-03T19:50:00.003+08:00

I cant help but get mad everytime I read happy posts of birthday celebrations.

2008-12-02T21:04:00.001+08:00

I'm sick of living life this way.

I feel like I've thrown the old me away, and now, I feel like a stranger, even to myself.

2008-12-01T21:57:00.004+08:00

WORK IS FREAKING BORING! I am trying my best to save my mp3 from its dead state, so that I wont be so bored tomorrow. I so so so have to get a new one soon. And I realised that my mp3 is only 1 gb lor. But nvm, better than nothing. *prays damn hard that work will be better tomorrow!!!*

Today's a looooooong day, Ed and I went to trim our hair after work, I love my fringe, and we went for dinner, at Bedok Interchange. Ed was such an idiot there.

First, I told her to get her food first, and after which, I went to get mine, we already said we're gonna share the zui gui, and so, on my way back, I bought the zui gui first. Her reaction was "Wa, I am damn surprised that you are smart enough to buy the zui gui!" Okay, nvm that.

She said she wanna eat tang yuan, so I asked if she wanted to share, and she said "I wanna eat myself, I wanna eat alot." And she pointed to herself while saying that, her actions were damn idiotic.

Finally, before buying the tang yuan, she said that she was damn full, so I asked her damn sarcastically, "So do you wanna SHARE the tang yuan now?" Since she was too full to stand up, I went to get the tangyuan. She wanted peanuts, while I wanted sesame, so I got 2 each.

She told me, "Eh, you better check properly hor, dont eat my peanut one ah, if not I dont care you have to just eat it!". Mine was sesame, and guess what was hers, SESAME too. And she said "Yian Hian, please eat can? I soak in the soup, you eat?"

HAHAHAHA. She's such a bitch right?!!!

So in the end, she ate it up.

Ed, think before you speak next time.

*thank you thank you thank you so much. even though i ended up smiling like a freak for two hours or so, while pasting receipts and trying to hide my smile when people walked past, you made time past so fast, just as you said you would.

2008-11-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

Ed won mahjong, and so, I had a treat to the movie Wild Child. And guys will go "Chick flicks".

It's always the same, pretty girl, good looking guy, mean not-so-pretty-girls, big problem, misunderstandings, brave pretty girl solve problem, sweet kissing scene, happy ending.

You feel loved and happy during the entire movie, and when it ends, it'll only make you feel worse about life.

Work starts tomorrow. I'll get to squeeze in buses and see young (and old) men in smart formal wear. Not forgetting the morning rush and pushing competition. Hello world.

2008-11-28T22:02:00.005+08:00

KBOX with CTG1. Right after the paper.

Everyone who went. We booked 2 rooms.
And, the quite long ago pizza party.

I finally have lots of dates and activities now, BUT, not the cash! Haha. Alright, mj soon, 've been long since I touched a tile! Wish me luck!

2008-11-26T20:26:00.002+08:00

I regret dreaming during accounting lessons all the time, I regret not doing my homework wholeheartedly, I regret I regret I regret!!!

I just wanna pass la!!! WA LAO, Never so scared for exams before lor.

*Prays hard.

2008-11-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

My papers sucked big time. Econs dragged on till 1145am! It was suppose to end at 11am. And analytical skills, HA! Dont even wanna talk about it. I like SMU exam system. It's so lax. Dont feel like exam. Oh! We even got break for econs paper today la! 10 minutes break after MCQs, before we start the essay.

Teabreak-ed with CT people at Ding Tai Feng at Raffles City. I ate the same stuff I had for lunch with Val yesterday. The service there is good! Loveeeeee the seafood fried rice.

I almost died carrying my laptop, AND my thick econs textbook to school, and back home. And believe it or not, I was standing all the way, for both journeys. I swear my arms were shivering, and after my nap, I have muscle aches.

Alright, Cant believe that I havent started on FA, since the last chapter i did, which was chapter 7, AND, not even half the book. AND AND AND, I'm already in the holiday mood! Shucks. I need some mugging bug.

CANT WAIT FOR THURSDAY 11AM!!!

2008-11-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

Even though I know it's impossible, I cant help but wish for it, hope for it, pray for it, wanna dream of it, and every little thing that happens would affect me alot!

AND.

I like this feeling, very much.

Thank you for bringing some of the butterflies back.

2008-11-24T14:22:00.003+08:00

I'm so alive right now! I'm in love with my BGS prof, totally. The paper was not easy, but at least I know I'll pass.

Okay, I'll have to mug for intro econs, and memorise fallacies and argument forms for analytical skills, I am so dead. I hope I'll end up falling in love with my econs and AS profs.

God, please please please... make the papers easy!!!Okay, as long as I pass, I'll be happy. *big wide smile!*

(*edited) I FREAKING HATE ECONS.

2008-11-23T18:06:00.001+08:00

Now I know, it's not the money, not the status.

It's simply, the charm.

2008-11-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

I came across a a blog of a guy, with beautiful pictures, uses great language, and has beautiful thoughts. BUT. He's gay. Damn.

2008-11-22T06:05:00.003+08:00

If I studied the same way as I did now, in Poly, I'd probably have gotten distinctions lor.

I've been sleeping so late recently, or rather, very early in the morning. I can feel myself getting uglier. I've been eating a whole lot too. I just had noodles, and now, I'm hungry again! But, I'm gonna sleep on it, have to be up by 1pm later.

Cant wait for next week to end!!!

2008-11-21T20:26:00.002+08:00

Dearest God,

I know I havent been the best student ever, nor did I work hard in school. I've always been late for morning classes, very late for project meetings, and I dont bother paying attention during those very interesting accounting lessons. I do my homework for the sake of participation marks, I am no longer as neat as before. I have more than 10 paste-its on my metal board, all about me hating school, and about how much SMU sucks.

BUT! Please help me pass my exams!!! And please make Thursday afternoon come as soon as possible. For the sake of my swollen right hand okay? Pretty pleeeeease!

With lots and hugs and kisses,
Sabrina.

2008-11-20T23:25:00.004+08:00

Studying with Val and Car is damn fun, AND productive! I'm sooooo glad I have friends who study the same way as me, haha, and Val and I had fun trying to memorise the points for the first few chapters, because I'm not done with the rest. Oh man, and this reminds me so much of Whyn!!! Who used to CHANT with me all the time.

Oh, and I cant get enough of the Toffy Nut Latte at Starbucks!!! Starbucks, no, in fact, everywhere I go, I hear christmas songs! So happy, so peaceful, NOT, cause it's the exams period. =(((

Anyway, Val came online, and her nick was "I'm the goldest fish."

So I said "Eh, then I'm the angel fish k."

And she told me the story of the goldest fish.

She was talking to her bf about how guys treat girls as fishes, wanting them to take their baits, and her bf disagreed with her. BUT! He said, if it was sooo...

Then Val is his gold fish!

WA LAO!!! I can still feel my heart melting.

Nevermind, I am happy being the, angelfish, with halo and all. X)

Alright, back to... Business, Government, and the Society. I dont wanna say I love this mod, but it's so much better than econs. Screw econs! Wait, SCREW accounting first.

2008-11-20T04:36:00.002+08:00

Today, I realised that I forgot how to be myself.

I feel like I'm wasting my damn life away, and I'll probably die of stress 4 years later.

Maybe not, I might end up failing all my papers, because NOTHING CAN GET INTO MY HEAD!

And you know, it's at times like that, when you start regretting, not cherishing all that you have had before.

It's near 5am, have got a study date with Val later on. Good ~~night~~ morning world.

2008-11-19T22:30:00.000+08:00

Peter Pan, you suck.

2008-11-18T22:40:00.002+08:00

I love it when my parents cook. They're the best cooks in the world, and it's really rare, to have them cook dinner on a weekday. And since Grandma's over at my Aunt's place for the week, I'm expecting a whole week of damn shiok dinner.

And when they cook together, they look very loving, although they'll speak in canto. most of the time, which makes everything, less romantic already. Oh, and canto. is like their secret language, cause none of us understands canto at home.

OKAY! This is like my 10 minutes break from my econs book. I hope Val's studying method really works. The self-denial method.

I love econs.
I love econs.
I love econs.
I LOVE ECONS!!!

2008-11-17T18:21:00.001+08:00

I really should start studying.
I really should start studying.
I really should start studying.
I really should start studying.
I really should start studying.
I really should start studying.
I REALLY SHOULD START STUDYING.

NOW.

2008-11-16T02:54:00.002+08:00

I am so freaking bored. I woke up at 8PM today, yes, PM, no typo, and I cant get to sleep now. My exams' coming real soon, and I have no mugging mood at all. I guess when you dont do well, all the more you wont wanna do it.

I kinda hate listening to happy stories now.
I wonder why is my heart still beating. Who is it beating for?

2008-11-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

I went to Kbox@ downtown with Eve after I left my BGS girls.

Had this dinner package. It was surprisingly good.

And I finally had my Sashimi!

Actually, the last day of school sucked. It only means that exams are coming.

2008-11-15T21:36:00.010+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of school, and our presentation day. It's really the day I've been waiting for, but surprisingly, I was not as happy as I thought I would be.

Met my cute teammates for Mac breakfast. It's always the best to start the day off with Mac breakfast, my favourite! We were supposed to meet at 9am, but I reached at 945am! Haha.

All of us love christmas!
Last touchup before presentation.
We added the picture below, to our Q and A slide. The prof said he loved it. Haha!
We were the first group to present, and we were damn happy, cause it means that we could relax throughout the whole lesson after that.

SMU hoodies. I kinda regretted not buying it. The dark blue one looked damn nice. Val, let's get it next year! Val and my colourful nails.

We love to disturb Car! She is damn cute. And she's not posing for this picture, she was actually trying to cover her skirt or something, and I asked her what's with the twist. It just so happened that her hand was like that when I snapped!My favourite line now when we're taking pictures is "Eh, take a picture of me taking a picture."

And we just cant stop snapping Car.
Okay, this picture of Kiang pin is candid too. I am such a pro.

We are so into the company that our project is about. They should TOTAL-ly hire us, to be in their marketing team. T!

O!
T!
A!
L!
TOTAL!
We told prof that he could be the exclaimation mark. And prof was damn cute, he said "Wait, take one with my camera too."

The whole BGS G8 class.

Val, Car and I went to Starbucks at Cathay after that.

We love the Christmas drink!!!

But I love you girls more.

2008-11-13T23:16:00.005+08:00

I accompanied Ed to get a guitar for Xavier's birthday. And both of us know nuts about guitars. See the way she carried the guitar.
Dont see like all the pictures are of her holding the guitar, after we had my favorite KFC for dinner, I was the one holding it all the way to Tampines.
It was raining, so I went to her place, flirt with Eddrick for a while. Haha.

And she drove me home. Now, I really dont know how she got her license.

Today, she came by my house, and said "Nah, your christmas present." It's the bag which I kept saying I wanted.

And she said something so sweet, which made me wanna hug her and cry!!!
Freaking touched! So in return, I have to put up this damn pretty picture of her here and tell everyone she's my best friend.

Love you Baby!

2008-11-13T22:23:00.006+08:00

I had freaking lots of fun during BGS meeting today!

Car and I. I think she's freaking sweet looking!!! And i kept telling her that if I'm a guy I'll totally go after her.
Jiang Hao and Phyo. Our group is so multinational lor!
Val. Myself. Car.

We booked the Seminar room to practice our presentation, but we decided to go home and write our scripts and practice tomorrow morning instead.
We played let's-speak-chinese. It was damn funny, Phyo's from Myanmar, and his chinese... sucked. Haha. Car's chinese was... not too good too. Val! We have the best chinese!
TOTAL.
We intend to put this as our nametags tomorrow. Oh, it's pronounced To-tel by the way.
We love each other oh-so-very-much!
But Phyo loves FA more.
Dinner at The Pizza Place.

Haha, they got the couple face can! And it was damn funny when Phyo trys to say GAY in chinese.
We asked Jiang Hao what kind of girls he likes, and he said "My girlfriend." Damn sweet right?!!! I totally melted on the spot la!
I hope our presentation goes well tomorrow. It's the last one for this semester. Cant wait to get over and done with. I'll so miss my BGS friends!!!

*Love my two-coloured nails! Damn proud of it, did it all by myself, in 20 minutes okay!

2008-11-12T14:01:00.003+08:00

I cant believe that I'm home!

I overslept, and I didnt go for accounting today. Ha, to think I was planning to copy the homework in class. Shit la, I missed the weekly quiz. And I cant believe that I'm quite happy about missing class today!

*Gerald, if you're reading this, sorry but no tips for you this week!

Haha. Trying my best to complete my analytical skills homework now, totally sucks. All the fallacies are soooooo confusing!

I have this feeling, this super super super strong feeling, that I'll fail accounting. Okay lor, so finally I decided not to quit, and I'll fail something. Well done man.

2008-11-12T00:52:00.002+08:00

Asian kitchen-ed with Ed today. The zha jiang mian was great. Especially the soup. I think i'm getting from bad to worse, I dont even care about my FA homework anymore. I decided to just not do it. I feel like just sleeping and dreaming, for 4 years.

2008-11-11T02:56:00.003+08:00

I went out with Baby today, Waruku was great! See the above set? It only cost like $16. The sign outside the shop said that Monday's ladies night, so half price for all ladies. But we didnt get the half price thingy! Well, it was already cheap enough. So, happy tummy!
Alright, FA homework!!! I HATE FA la!!!

2008-11-10T03:01:00.002+08:00

Fuck you. Stop bugging me!!! I freaking hate one of my group mates. Oh, and if you dont already know about the girl who I wanted to dig the brain out of, it's her. And for fuck sake! Please speak in english! I really dont know what she's talking about half the time!

I am in a freaking mean mood now!!!

I know it's no big deal, but she just ALWAYS happened to piss me off when I'm in my foulest mood. GO AWAY LA!!!

And fuck la, her msn has got soooooooooo many irritating icons! Shut up already!!!

I havent felt like that for weeks, hating smu. I thought I've already gotten over everything, but I havent. Fuck.

Now I have to dig out my brain, and throw it away.

Just go away, everybody.